Skinny Minny in A Spiffy!

So , I have this irrational fear of losing weight. l0l. No, I really do.  After I workout or when I get hungry, if I don't eat right away, I feel like I might lose a lot of weight. Contrary to some ppl's struggle, I dont wanna lose weight, I just want to maintain, maybe even gain a little. But I worked out yesterday and I'm for sure I lost at least two pounds. But any ole hoot, I don't feel I have a choice. I had my BP taken yesterday and it was definitely like 150/90 - not a good sign at all. I am African American as is, so I am already predispositioned to have high BP. High BP leads to strokes, and hearts attacks, things I never want to encounter. Sooooo, with that being said, I am gonna be hittin the gym like nobody's business, because I am not going to die from something I can prevent, ya know?

Moral of the story : Sometimes you have to settle for the lesser of the two evils. :)

Love is . . what love is. But what is love, really?

Before you go away to college, your parents have prep'd you for all the crazy things in life you might face. But in some cases, it doesnt hit you until the consequences of a situation are well under way. I don't know love-true love- that is. One day, I hope to encounter it. But while I'm searching for it, I don't want "temporary pit stops" or a whole lot of "Mr. Wrongs" , nonetheless, how do I really know if I am meeting a Mr. Wrong? It's not always easy identifying them. Just recently, me and a guy made an agreement to work on a serious relationship, but I'm so confused because ever since we came to this agreement, things seem to be going in the opposite direction. Why is this? Why is it that after 2-3ish of trying to convince someone to commit (even though that's a long time to be indecisive about a relationship) you up and change the game? I don't get it. Now that I have open arms and you are all I want, you don't seem to have time for me? *sighs  Am I being impatient, and/or expecting more from you because things have changed although they really haven't and I just expect them to? Idk, this has just been on my heart and in my mind, along with all the other complications of my beautiful life. :) 


One day I'll get married and all this will be one big blur. :)